Haiiii guys
It’s been a long time since my last post and its
gonna be my last post in 2015!! So Happy New Year guys!!!!! May all the joy and
happiness comes to you.
I know that I’m not that really good at managing
my blog. So sorry for the lack of updates! I don’t have someone who can help me
to take a pic, etc which sometimes make me want to stop blogging, But trust me,
I try my best to always updating my blog because I love Blogging.
Talking about New Year, 2015 is not the best
year of my life but 2015 has been a good year for me. It’s better than 2014 and
I’ve learned a lot of new things, I went to some new place and met a lot of new
people.
2015 also thought me, how to be more
independence, be grateful for everything that I have and most important thing
is to loving myself no matter what.
I already want to share about this since a long
time ago but I’m afraid someone will call me a dramaqueen etc because of it. It’s
like another reason why I barely update my blog. But today I’lI talk about it.
So, I have a really low self esteem, and I’m so insecure af. I’ll always
believe every single insult from another people. Like a few months ago some
‘people’ just talking sh*t behind me about me and my blog. They also said that
I try to brag off about anything that I post in my blog etc. It’s really make
me sad, angry, and depression at the same time. I started to always blame my
self, i stop posting anything that I want in this blog because I’m afraid that
everyone will hate me even more.
And it’s getting hard day by day, not only about
this problem but also another problem. And I don’t have someone who I can talk
with. Yes, I have some close friends or bestfriend but sometimes when I try to
talk about my problem to them most of them will make me felt more like a sh*t.
But yeah I can’t blame anyone for my problem.
So, I try to face them, I try to be more independence, and loving my own self,
because “after all, all you have is yourself.”
I hope everyone out there who has the same
problems with me, or another problems please love yourself and trust yourself
first before you love and trust somebody else. You deserve to be happy!
Don’t give up on your life, because your life is
beautiful so either you are. Xoxo!
And I want to say thank you to all of guys, I know my blog is not that ‘big’ but
still you guys are the reason why I still here! I Love ya. Once again Happy New
Year guys! May the odds be ever in your favor!
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